Day 170- Feeling Very Successful and Happy with Life :)
Sunday, May 20, 2012
It's been awhile. Well really only three days, but that's more days than I like to miss blogging on SP. I was home this weekend to help my parents with a huge event that my dad helps out with. I was at the event form 7-3 on Friday and 10-2 on Saturday. Both days I ate good breakfasts and fruit and packed sandwiches. I did have a donut on Saturday, which wasn't the greatest, but I think it was okay.
On Friday night, I also helped my friend out with the World Affair, an event, which is at the Convention Center and has countries from all over the world represented with booths with food and crafts. Well I worked the Italian booth with her family, and was in charge of the cash drawer for pastries...Yes. I had to check out every person with a canoli, chocolate mousse, tiramisu, or italian wedding cake. It should have been torturous, but it really wasn't. During my break I had 2 small slices of pizza and one slice of the wedding cake, and that was it. I also stood for 4 hours straight. When I looked up a calorie counter online, it said just standing at 220 pounds burns 100 calories every 30 minutes. So I supposedly burned 800 calories that night? Which I'm hoping would equal out the pizza and cake. Either way I'm pretty proud with how this weekend turned out.
I also exercised some this weekend. When I got home on Thursday, I decided to go for a run/jog/walk in my neighborhood because we have really nice sidewalks which may seem silly, but it's nice not having to worry about cars. I'm doing Week 2 of Couch to 5k and managed to do 2.5 miles in 33 minutes. Then today, when I got back to school, I was feeling antsy. It was strange because it was almost like an out of body experience. It's as if I didn't even know what was happening while I was changing into running clothes. Then I looked down and said, well I guess I'm going to the bike path. So I went down, and was determined to do 3.1 miles (a true 5K) and I did it in 40:31 and burned 473 calories!
I'm very happy with myself this weekend. I really had many opportunities to fail, but I tried to keep looking towards the future. When I saw those canolis and chocolate mousse pies... I really wanted them, but I decided that I want to lose this weight more. I just have to keep that in mind. When I wanted to stop on the bikepath and just walk the last mile and a half, I thought about the 42 minutes it took me to do my last 5k and how I am 20 pounds lighter than I was then. And that I should be able to finish faster. So I pushed through and I did it.
I'm also really excited because 3 of the 4 items I have listed on eBay have bids placed on them! The auctions end tomorrow, but currently I'll be getting over $60 for two pairs of capris and a summer dress, minus the shipping it costs to send them. Still AWESOME. Considering I used to just give my clothes away. I don't want to sound greedy or snotty, but I hated how much money I was losing just donating clothes. I know it's for a good cause, but I like to think that the new money will go towards the new clothes I have to buy because I keep going down sizes.
This Memorial Day weekend is my 5 year anniversary with my boyfriend. We are going to a bed and breakfast at a farm that has numerous hiking trails and fishing and biking. Something really active and fun! Our 3 year anniversary was a trip to Cedar Point, with a stop first at a restaurant called MELT which makes delicious gourmet grilled cheese sandwiches.
There are two things I remember from that trip. One, I ate SO much food it is absolutely disgusting and sinful. I cannot believe I ever used to eat like that. And two, I waited 90 minutes in line for Millenium Force, to get into the seat, and not be able to strap the belt. To this day, that is still one of the most embarrassing moments of my life. My boyfriend (310 lbs) could fit in this ride, and I couldn't, because most of my weight was in my hips and stomach, and the strap just wouldn't go. When we got out of the line, I remember just starting to cry. J.D. tried to console me, but there were no words that could take away the pain and embarrassment I felt, having to get out of that line while everyone watched. I can't believe that didn't trigger me to want to lose weight, but I know now that I will never be like that again.
Wow, this blog turned into a novel. Sorry. I guess all I'm really trying to say with this is, we all have moments during our journeys where we will feel horrible and incredibly sad. Those may be moments we have to look towards in our times of greatest challenges. Because I know two years ago, the girl that didn't fit on that roller coaster, would have tried one of each of the desserts as well as probably half of a pizza at the World Affair.
But not who I am now. Not who I've been able to become thanks to Spark People and all of you, my Spark Friends. I've never been so happy or proud with the person I am becoming, and I can't wait to continue on this journey for the rest of my life.