I want to be thin..

Sunday, May 20, 2012

Have you ever wanted something so badly that it over-rules your common sense and reason? Well, I have; I do. I really want to be thin. I want to be proud of how I look and not feel like I should cover up where-ever I am. I want to be able to sit on the beach in a bikini and not draw negative attention to myself. I want to meet up with my friends and not be jealous of their appearances and slender shapes. I know how to lose weight. It seems simple. Eat healthy, eat less, exercise - easy peasy, right?! Wrong. I never knew how wrong I was. This is the way to lose weight, but to actually do that requires a lot more motivation, adherence and thought than I have ever realised. I salute all you out there who are successfully losing weight. I admire your strength. I am so focused on trying to stick to a plan, to these 3 ideas, that I've tired myself. I'm tired of working so hard, and getting nothing. I'm tired of pushing all my thoughts into this 1 tiny part of my life. Right now, I am so demotivated that I'm regressing - I'm going backwards! I am eating more than I have ages, and the wrong foods. Chocolate, biscuits and crisps is all I want to eat. I am exercising less, too. As a consequence to this, I'm gaining weight. All the weight I had lost is coming back! And to see that is even more demotivating. It's all a chain of events, linking one thing to another. I felt tired, so I ate, so I gained weight, so I was annoyed and upset, so I ate... An endless cycle that I can't break.

One step in the right direction could sort this. It's like riding a scooter - one step and one push and you can make it down the hill, over the top and down the other side. I don't want to climb uphill any more, so that step happens now.
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    Thank you all so much! I really appreciate your support and tips! I will work on those things in the future
    1976 days ago
    I agree with AlwaysRosey - Your macro nutrient intake is really important. Try increasing your protein (I think SP suggests about 25%) to about 35 - 45% of your daily calories. It helps to eliminate cravings if you greatly reduce refined sugars and carbs from your diet.

    As a jump start - try to eat only lean proteins and raw green veggies for 3 days. It will help you eliminate cravings and act as a body cleanse. Keep your carbs whole grain and early in the day or right after a workout. Also, if you eat every 3 hours and include a healthy fat it will help you feel satisfied.

    So many of us feel exactly as you do. I have gained and lost the same 10 pounds at least 4 times in the past couple of years. Hang in there - we're here for you.
    1977 days ago
    What the AA groups say is SO true: ONE DAY AT A TIME!

    Try telling yourself you will eat healthy JUST FOR ONE DAY. Then decide if you want to do it again the next day. Thinking about the long term is so overwhelming, you can just get discouraged and lose the power to change anything at all.

    When you make it through a day, give yourself a big high-five!

    1977 days ago
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    Maybe focus on health instead of being thin. If you focus on health you won't want to be eating junk because it is bad for your health.

    I am sure you are not getting as many negative looks as you think. You have to start feeling good about yourself now, not waiting until you are 'thin'.

    Love your body enough to feed it good healthy food. The weight will follow.

    Best of luck
    1977 days ago
    Hey there! emoticon

    That would have been me!!! You described a LOT of us really well. Guess what? I looked at my food tracker and added some nutrients - like calcium and fiber . . . turns out I was not getting enough PROTEIN, Calcium, Fiber, B vitamins, Vit C, and Vit D.

    I'm now paying closer attention to try and get these things in my diet - BUT I'm also using a Whey Protein supplement when I fall short for protein and I'm taking daily calcium (yes! it helps you loose weight! - who knew?) and D, C and B complex.

    This has really helped me make better food choices in the evening when I'm most prone to eat mindlessly and ruin a whole day of good nutrition.

    I hope you find your aha moment too!

    Nice to meet you!!!

    Carol emoticon
    1977 days ago
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