Sunday, May 20, 2012
Yesterday was my Dad's 90th birthday party and we had a ball but it involved eating all day with the whole family present. My family doesn't know how to celebrate unless it's sitting at the table with lots of food. All good food too, just not the healthy stuff. The closest we got to healthy was the spinach bake with lots of mozzerella on top. The desserts were fantastic too followed with a birthday cake that my niece made in the shape of a million dollar bill with my Dad's picture on it and a sack of money on the side in case we needed
more cake (which we didn't as we were all too full to even enjoy the cake).
So today is a new day and new week and I've got to get back on track for at least
5 of these days because there is another double birthday party on Saturday. It's either a party or a holiday, I can't get away from them. Plus this weekend is also Memorial Day which means a cookout too. Life is just getting too much in the way and I seem to be helpless to get myself out of this mess. I'm determined not to go up another number so I have to work hard to get down so I have room for this coming weekend.
I feel like this is my whole life lately. Up and down but never getting anywhere. The stress is heavy on my shoulders and I just can't wait till we leave again so I can regain control without being pulled in so many directions. I've just got to make it thru till Oct and then I can put my mind to it and make some progress. I know it sounds like excuses and it probably is but I lost my energy and willpower to finish this journey. I don't want to journal foods anymore. I force myself to exercise but only about 20 mins a day if that. On the plus side, at least I still do exercise and I am aware of eating healthy - I just don't always pick the right choices anymore. Chocolate esp. calls me. I'm tired of fruits and veggies, I want cookies and ice cream- things I didn't let myself have as I can't control the portion size.
So there it is in black and white and now I have to deal with it. I'm going to give it all I have Sun thru Fri. and I know already that Sat will be a lost day but I hope that next week at this time, I am in a good place.