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The dreaded Rollercoaster...

Saturday, May 19, 2012

Okay, the truth is - I have lost and gained so much weight over my lifetime you would think I would get off this rollercoaster - but sadly not just yet....

I had someone give me a box of my favourite cookies before Christmas - shortbread - and have been pretty much eating everything/anything that appeals to me since then...I couldn't keep my hand out of the box once I started eating them and yes ate them till I felt ill....

I decided to get back to working towards my goal of a healthy weight and back to connecting with Spark again....

I - checked my weight - because sadly I am on the scale constantly when I am working out regularly paying focused attention to what I am eating. When I am eating whatever appeals - then I stay off the scale. The number on the scale - well lets just say I wasn't happy again and sad that I had let it go this far....literally sabotaged myself to gain back half of what I had lost.....

I was so proud of my loss and felt great - so why did that sugar rush for one night - make me jump back on the roller coaster - for 5 months grrrrrrrrr

I know no one really cares if I gain - my hubby says I am beautiful no matter what - I am the one who cares - I need to lose at least 30 more pounds according to my doc as I was diagnosed pre-diabetic by my doc at my last visit....

I saw what diabetes long term - did to my mother and father.....

I need Spark, I need support, I need to keep focused - I so appreciate the little notes left from my Spark buddies... they truly do help ....

I Want to Be the correct weight for my body so that it functions the way it should. Why is it so many people are the right weight and it seems so very very difficult to me... I Want This - I Want This - I Want This

Can and will do....

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