Saturday, May 19, 2012
This coming week I may be having a therapy session to help me with my food/eating issues. I have been trying to use self-discipline (or self- control) to stop eating out of boredom. I find other things to occupy my time during my, most likely, bad eating times. It seems to be working... I am down just over 6 pounds in 2 weeks. I know a little is likely water weight, but I HAVE been exercising more and except for my thigh, I have lost inches all over, or stayed the same. My therapist hopes to whip me into shape and teach me to better control my issues with food and losing total composure when I gain. He will try to teach me to make progress not expect perfection. I think I am finally open to his help and will finally learn my lesson when it comes to eating too much. Being Diabetic, eating right is an integral part of my blood glucose control. With therapy, maybe I can get to the bottom of my food issues. Maybe even relieve some of my guilt from past food-related traumas, like the Dr. putting me on diets where I ate VERY LITTLE and being ridiculed by gym teachers for being "heavy" before it became the norm. Now, of course, I know WHY I was so much heavier than anyone else and needed to diet from age 12 on. I had an undiagnosed goiter on my thyroid, causing hypothyroidism and extreme weight gain. Now I take medication and no longer have a legitimate excuse for being heavy, except maybe laziness... So, off to therapy I'll go...where maybe we can beat this laziness and make progress...leaving the perfection to the models who have all that "plastic" perfection... As for me, I prefer the au naturel body God gave me, but just needing a bit of tweaking.