Friday, May 18, 2012
God I needed this!!! I weighed myself twice this morning (I believe in 2nd opinions), 217 was the number that flashed before my eyes!!! My first weight loss goal was to see 219, but I never saw it, not once. Yesterday I went from 220.5 to 217 today which just goes to show, the scale is crazy and I shouldn't listen to a damn thing it has to say.
But today, I am on cloud 9 and I rejoice but only for a few moments, then its back to work, onto the next goal.
The past few weeks have been a whirlwind of emotions that I am working through. Abandoning these issues was not an option. But it all caught up to me yesterday. I was completely exhausted and left early from work. My immediate reaction was comfort food, I needed it, or so I thought. Food options swirled in my head and I even suggested getting dinner from a place near our house called Super Burger, where greasy is an ingredient in all the menu items. I seriously love this place. The husband agreed and then I stopped myself and said no, this isn't going to happen.
I met my husband at home, burgerless and told him we had to eat what was in the house. We ended up cooking up a thin crust chicken and garlic pizza which was very yummy and comforting and I was able to stay in range. Nothing at Super Burger would have kept me in range. My husband proceeded the evening with our usual routines and planned to stay up till at least 10 pm. Something came over me and I got up off that couch and I went to bed early because I was going to get up early and work out. I got in a GREAT full nights of sleep and worked out as planned.
Yesterday I really had to fight the urges to veer off the path, that path that I want to be on. It's odd that you can want this but yet be so easily distracted. I believe this is much like being addicted to drugs. I can say this because I've been there, I didn't want to be but there were so many reasons to always go back, to jump off the path of sobriety, something I desperately wanted, something I eventually achieved. But it was a tough journey, much like this one shall be.
My next weight loss goal is to reach 209 lbs. That is only 8 lbs away! This weeks No Scale Victory (I stole that from some awesome sparker who has become a success in his own path) is to stay within range 6 of 7 days. To continue to workout to my kickboxing video 4x next week and stay with my stretching/leg lifts/resistance tv workout that is keeping me super sore. Next week will hopefully bring on the heat and I will swim on my lunch breaks.
Onward! Even if it kills me...