Friday, May 18, 2012
I've always been considered the "fat" girl even when I was growing up. During my grammar school and high school days I was bullied because of my weight and size. I never really let it bother me during that time because my friends were always very supportive and for some reason I always kinda knew how to dress my body. The years pass by, college is great and suddenly when I turned 21 things began to change.
The year I turned 21 was the year I really started to feel bullied again. It wasn't necessarily a person or a group of people itself, it was an entire situation and environment. I have always been a very social person and I really do enjoy going out to have fun with my friends and meet new people.
When I finally turned 21 and started to go to the bars I found myself against men and women that look at me in a strange way. I knew there wasn't anything in my teeth or stray makeup all over my face. It finally dawned on me that they looked at me funny because I was "fat". I would consider myself curvy with some tummy action but overall I always knew how to dress my body appropriately to what I thought I could play with the skinny girls. Guys wouldn't approach me because my friends (who are all dear to my heart and it is nothing against them) who are pretty small are more desirable.
The thing that gets me the most is that people automatically assume I am not healthy. Yes, being over weight does have it health risks such as health disease, diabetes, and all sorts of cancers but right now, I am healthy. Since they think I'm unhealthy they automatically assume that I don't like to do things that normal "fit" females do such as spending time outside (hiking, swimming, biking), go to the gym (which I go at least 4 times a week), eat healthy (I eat healthier than my best friend who is a size 2... damn her for good genes!), and want to be overall active lifestyle.
I know weight loss will help with his "big girl" stigma but I'm losing weight for my own personal enjoyment, not to make people stop talking.
What I really wish is that people would stop judging a person on their physical appearance because it's not fair to anyone.