Friday, May 18, 2012
So yesterday, I broke off from concentrating on diet and exercise after work and just decided to treat myself to a juicy cheeseburger with fries yesterday night. So yes, Vegan Day went out the window that night.
Funny thing was, I couldn't finish the meal. Is it possible that my efforts at portion control have actually allowed me to feel full on less food? I mean, it's not that I didn't eat a LOT of calories that night, but in the past, I was definitely able to eat more. It makes me feel like despite there not being any visible changes to my body, I have indeed changed!
Anyways, I wanted to relax and treat myself because I was feeling down. Although I know treating myself with food and beer wasn't a good idea, it really hit the spot last night. It was the best burger I've had in years! So today, my mood has actually gotten better. I'm still feeling a bit down, but I feel better than yesterday. I am going to treat myself again this weekend to a massage! I just made the appointment and I am looking forward to it so much!
So I am trying to take a break from diet and exercise. I am going out again for dinner tonight. Hubby is taking me out to make me feel better. Despite the fact that I am supposed to be on a break, I am considering ordering a salad or just eating half of the given portion. I also can't stop thinking that we can go running when I get home and then go running again on Sunday. I thought I'd also be relaxed by sitting at my desk these days, but I still find myself standing for short periods of time because I just can't sit for that long without getting antsy. I've also considered getting off at an earlier stop so I have a shorter walk to work, but I haven't done that because I've become habituated to getting off at the farther stop.
It's strange to think that when I consciously decide to take a break because the dieting and exercising is getting too stressful, I can't completely stop dieting and exercising. Despite the fact that I am not getting thinner or feel that this is getting easier, it is encouraging to know that new habits have actually been formed and it wasn't all a waste of time. For example, I automatically keep thinking I am going to have a salad or something else light for lunch today. :-)