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one year "Sparkiversary"

Friday, May 18, 2012

I joined SP in May of 2011. The day I joined was one of those chilly, yucky, rainy days and my mood was matching the weather. I was feeling pretty down about myself. I had been putting on more and more weight, and felt helpless to stop it. I knew my eating habits were becoming more unhealthy, and that combined with my lack of physical activity was going to lead to some major health issues down the road. I remembered hearing about SP and thought, I'll give it a shot. Though I truthfully didn't think I'd stick with it. I'm an all or nothing kind of person, and from past experience I assumed that as soon as I messed up the plan here a few times, I'd give up for good.

In the first 6 months I dropped 15 pounds (but put about 5 back on over the winter). I've learned a lot about myself (like I have a sweet tooth that at this point still seems incurable. I hope to gain the courage to try the Tame Your Sweet Tooth Challenge someday). I've learned how to squeeze exercise in when I don't have much time for it. I've learned that a little bit of exercise in the morning goes a long way toward making me want to eat well the rest of the day (usually- sometimes it makes me feel like I deserve an ice cream sundae!). I've learned a lot about healthy eating. I've learned about the power of support (even if that support comes from complete strangers). I've discovered that I can and will have phases where I just can't make myself care, and no amount of outside motivation can change that. But later there will come a phase where I do have it in me to pick up where I left off, and little by little I can meet my goals.

I surprised myself by being here one year later, saying that I didn't meet all of the goals I laid out for myself when I first joined, but I'm ok with it. I'm still working toward those goals, and have a few new ones in mind after that is accomplished. Little by little SP is helping me to learn about myself. The more knowledge I have, the more effectively I can work toward making myself healthy and treating my body responsibly and with respect, the way God intends us to treat ourselves.
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  • RUDITUDI2000
    You are down vs up & learning along your journey. You are doing great! All or nothing, not sustainable for most of us. Its way more realistic and fun to enjoy! emoticon
    1884 days ago
    I really love this reflection! I like that the real win is having learned about yourself. And I know exactly what you mean a out sometimes not caring. I think that's very healthy! I'm thankful to God for you! emoticon
    1895 days ago
    Good job, keep with it!

    1895 days ago
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