Friday, May 18, 2012
My mind is in a jumble right now. I find that my crunches each evening allow me to shut off my brain. I can't believe that I find them theraputic.
I am a wife.
I am a mother.
These two roles are the most important roles in my life. These two roles are what define my life. Every decision I make directly effects these parts of my life. Every action I make has to benefit my family. My life would be nothing with out the amazing love of my husband and daughter. They are the joy of my life.
I am a kitchen designer.
Yes, this is the first time I've actually said it. I attended an NKBA meeting tonight. It really is just now sinking in that I have a career. I am a kitchen designer. I am learning the skills and gaining the experience that I will need to take my skills to several different types of construction business or start my very own business. I can not believe that. Its true though, I am a kitchen designer. I've sold a couple of jobs. I've been working in the field for years. I have several jobs waiting for me at work. I have a department that I am responsible for and I have good relationships with my contractors.
I am an individual.
As an individual it is so important to take care of myself. It is important for me to take the time out to get fit, to regain my core muscles. It is important that I eat right and that I take a break once in a while to pamper myself. If I let myself go I not only do injustice to myself but I also hurt my family. They rely on me to be there for them just like I rely on them to be there for me.
Life is a huge balancing act. There is never enough time. I worry at times that now is not the time for me to pursue my AKBD. I worry that my daughter is only going to be so small for such a short amount of time. I think that I don't have time to work, or to cook that healthy meal or to do those crunches. The dishes should be done instead or the floor swept. The fact of the matter is though, that I have to make the time for it all. My husband is my rock. My daughter is my life. My career gives me self satisfaction. My health gives me peace of mind. These are all important pieces to the puzzle that is me. It is a challenge to fit them all into a day. Somehow I am managing. I don't know how, but I manage to keep my priorities straight.
I am a wife first, a mother second. I have a career that is rewarding and have a clean bill of health. I'm not sure what else I could possibly ask for.