Friday, May 18, 2012
I know thats its been awhile since I posted a blog, but I've just been dealing with alot in my life that has lead to me again falling off the wagon so to speak. I was doing okay for awhile; I was staying away from sugar-filled colas, I was more active and drinking alot more water than I ever had before plus I was truly watching what I was eating. Well over the last 2-3 weeks atleast I've gone back to my old ways ~ back to eating wayyyyy too much, back to drinking those sugar-filled colas and back to being under huge amounts of stress. I want to get back up and dust myself off but I'm so used to just staying down that its hard to get back to where I was before ~ i've even slacked off the gym (which I feel bad about). I'm really working to stop sabotaging myself and to just say hey you know what? I made a mistake, time to get over it and move on. I know that I need motivation and such but what kind? That's what I need to focus on right now, get that motivation back and really continue to work on myself for the time being. I know that I can do it, and I will ........ I owe it to myself !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!