toxic guilt trip….I took one TuesdayI read about them here:
I Know I emotionally eat when I'm tired too. So I'm tired which leads to cravings which leads to eating and toxic guilt. Things I need to work on.
Something else I read from SP found here: ( www.sparkpeople.com/reso
It talks about the difference between Diet and Lifestyle. Last year I completed the SP program and I have earned my points for reading this article but some how I had forgotten. I play lip service to the "lifestyle." I understand that I can't diet and "win" and yet that's what I have been doing off and on for the last 6 months. I need to change my way of thinking.
I have made significant progress.
I order water instead of soda when I eat out as second nature. That's a lifestyle change.
I order a side of fresh vegetables instead of fries.
BUT I have a long way to go.
I need to carb detox. I can eat sugar like you wouldn't believe.
I need to remember "imagining yourself eating a treat can decrease your desire to eat the real thing."
I need to learn to have one small piece of one serving of something and STOP. But it's so hard in the beginning. It's like quitting smoking (it's been 10 years this year!). The second you decide to quite your cravings seem overwhelming but you know it's bad for you so you resist. Overtime it gets easier until you stop thinking about it altogether. Now for some people who quit (smoking or anything else) they can have one and not restart a terrible habit again.
I'M NOT THAT PERSON!
I know that if I have one cigarette I'll be back to a pack a day. I see sweets the same way except society isn't shunning me to the back patio or out of the car because I'm eating a candy bar or a piece of cake. It's all or nothing. Easier said than done. I need to learn moderation with sweets. Once piece of cake cannot result in sugar cravings and binging on junk.
Today I went to my sons Kinder party and they fed the kids cupcakes, cookies, and donuts. I didn't eat anything....even when the giant, yummy, chocolate chip cookies were passed under my nose and offered directly to me. I said. "no thanks"
I said no, I said no, I said no!
I am proud of my choice today. That cookie did look yummy but first I need to regain and maintain control of my sugar beast. 48 hours binge is hardly considered "in control"