I need a do over.
Thursday, May 17, 2012
I haven't been very honest or realistic on here. I say I want to loose 20 pounds total, but the way I'm eating, I'll probably GAIN twenty before my wedding. Actually, I need to stop thinking about it like that. Maybe that's my problem. I need to look at it as a way to make my life better, instead of a goal for a single day. *sigh*
My mom just had open heart surgery, and while she's doing better every day, I can't help wondering if the fact that she's overweight contributed to the issue leading to the surgery. I don't want that. I don't want to be her age and in the hospital for invasive surgery. It's scary to think about!
I need to start tracking my food again, but I don't want to be the person who writes down their food every day forever. I tracked yesterday and was under my calories but over on my fat intake-thank you two slices of pizza at the work party yesterday. Today I tracked my breakfast-and am almost at 700 calories. Ugh. I can't be proud of eating breakfast if it's going to leave me only 500-800 calories for two more meals and a snack today. That's the most backwards progress ever.
So I guess I'll start small...should I work on my water intake first or tracking my food? Hm... I did well with the weekly goals, I think maybe I should get back to that.
Thursday May 17-Wednesday May 23: Track all food, no matter what I've eaten or how much I've eaten. It may be ugly, but it'll show me what I'm shoveling into my mouth.
I think I need to make Spark my homepage-I did really well logging in when I did that last summer!
I'll check back in on the 23 with a blog post about how I ate, and then I'll pick a second goal to work on for the next week. Eventually I'll even work my way up to exercise (but I feel like walking the unit at work should count! And moving my dang apartment should count too! Anyone know where to find an inexpensive pedometer that won't fall apart on me in two seconds?)