Wednesday, May 16, 2012
Things are better today, between my hip, the rain and some issues at home, it has been rough this week. Really felt like I was falling apart yesterday or more I was falling apart due to the love of my life falling apart. Hubby suffers from depression and it had never been too bad, just a bad day here or there, the feeling something is wrong but not knowing what it was but the past few weeks have been harder than usual. So we never really did anything about it, I just enhanced his diet and I try to get him to exercise with me and do some yoga. Not sure if my weight loss pursuit has been exacerbating the issue but there is some coinciding timeframes. Finally yesterday was the breaking point, things had been a bit off this week and he snapped at me about my perfume in the morning and then made me feel bad about not offering to drive to work when he already had the keys in his hand, after that I was floored. He never takes his moods out on me and he had been pulling away which was making me feel rejected and causing me to pull away too. So finally we took some steps to help this and not let it get any worse. He just started taking st johnís wort yesterday and we talked pretty much all day, then instead of the normal night in front of the tv, we played games and laughed and tried to take him out of his head. He said he still felt sad but today he is in a better place. So yes my workout may have suffered yesterday but my marriage and my husbandís well being are more important than my workout schedule, back on track today, btw and making up for yesterday.