Wednesday, May 16, 2012
I'm on day 12 of my 5k training. I'm following an every other day plan, so that means i'm half way through my 3rd week. I'm so happy with myself for keeping at it, and I get so excited when I see tiny little changes in my body, or my thinking, or my motivation. This has been such a great 3 weeks, even through those couple of times I thought I was going to fall over and just not be able to crawl my way back home.
While last night wasn't my best time, nor my longest run since I've started training, I did come away with a few tiny victories. The first, was just getting out the door. It was hot and i was tired and I had about an hour before the sun set. But I did it. I changed my clothes, laced up my shoes, grabbed my ipod and headed out the door. Aahhh...it was a good decision!
And then for the ultimate test of the night. I went on my run and forced myself to face one of the fears I have about running....running with others/running where others can see me/running where I can compare myself to other runners. I went to a local park that has a great running track. And as expected on a beautiful spring day in Salt Lake, this park was busy! As irrational as it sounds, I've been fearful of letting others see m run because of the things I think they will think of me. (Ha, does that even make any sense?!) Things like, I can't believe how slow she's going! She looks like she's going to pass out! And because I'm doing interval training, Look, she can't even run a full mile. But ultimately, Look, she's not a "real" runner. So, for those taunts, which are truly only self-inflicted and in my own head, I've been afraid to a place dedicated to running. Well, I did it. I joined the track with other runners. And you know what, while I wasn't able to pass any of them, let alone keep up with them, I was able to face a fear and run in their company. It was so great! Amazingly it was so great to have people see me run! To have them see me trying to better myself inside and out. One of the things I've come to love in 3 short weeks is not only feeling and seeing my body improve, but feeling good on the inside, feeling pleasure at the tiny accomplishments, the little victories. So, all that being said, I know I have no more excuses to not run at a great local park with other runners because, like them I guess I am a 'real" runner!