Wednesday, May 16, 2012
Just came back in from my 3 mile run/walk and ready to start my day :) I was a bit disappointed that I didn't have the endurance that was used to when I was running...usually I can do about 4-6 miles easy at about an 8:30/mi pace but I've been slacking a bit the last month in hopes to get preggo (TOM arrived yesterday so NO GO) and I've lost some of my endurance in the process. But I reminded myself that it's been about a month and I just kept trekking. For those of you who don't know...I'm training for my first 1/2 marathon that's in July (the 22nd)
My body takes very easily to running so I know that my endurance will be right back up there shortly. Speaking of my marathon...My hopes is to be between 130-135 by race day. I've been hovering around 145 for months now. I have been driving myself crazy with numbers...don't we all lol...and so I just wanted to come on here and set a few guidelines for myself...
Weigh ONCE per week. (Sundays)
1600 cals per day 1800 on high-mileage days
Blog my food/life frustrations instead of eating them!!!
And that's gonna be it for me. The more I put myself into a box and the more guidelines I give myself, the more paranoid I get. I know HOW to eat, I know WHEN to eat, I know HOW MUCH to eat...all the rest is mental..and frankly I'm tired of going crazy. I've gotta find new ways to relieve stress (yes I know exercise is a way but i'd be exhausted if I exercised each time i dealt with stress LOL) I've begun to really focus on non-food rewards...my newest is getting my nails done. I've never had my nails done until just 2 weeks ago. I got them done again yesterday, it makes me feel really good about myself. I'm thinking the next move may be a spray tan (i'm uuuber pasty lol) I've just noticed that I don't invest much time into myself as a woman i.e. feeling pretty and I want to but sometimes I feel like I may not deserve it...which I already know is a bunch of bull...but mentally I struggle...as I'm sure we all do. The thing is I'll get myself a big salad from a restaurant or chipotle and yes I keep withing calorie range but I realized that it costs just as much as if I went and beautified myself instead! So I'm trying a new approach :)
Well off to shower before work! I hope all you sparklies have a beautiful day. You are worthy of achieving all that you set your heart to. Believe it.