Wednesday, May 16, 2012
So things are coming together but very slowly and I'm so impatient....I have to come to the reality that I wont be getting that much support around me from family and non existing friends (everyone is just to busy) after all I need to do this for myself and my children, and lets face it the only people we can rely on is ourselves. So anyway no more being negative and letting myself down and beating myself up...It's my fault I am this way no one else-its me that puts the food in my mouth so time to stop and sort it out.
I had an appointment on Monday to talk about my weight and see what can be done about it, and I will soon be going through the psychological reasons for why I have the "habits" I do and face them and deal with them, Hopefully that will help in a big way.
Today I go to see the consultant about sterilization to, I have had the "implant" for several years now and although I have always been big so I'm not blaming that for the weight I do feel that it is slowing my weight loss down, so once all the "false" hormones are out of my body my head is being "looked in to" I can finally join the gym and push myself to the limit....if not further!!....