Tuesday, May 15, 2012
I didn't want to get this off my chest over the weekend being that it was Mothers Day...
I didn't spend Mothers Day with my Mom. We haven't spoken in about a week. This isn't the first time we haven't been on speaking terms. Its so frustrating each and every time, but this time, now that I'm a bit older, I feel I can really tell her what bothers me most.
So right now...my mom is in the process of moving to Alaska. She met and fell in love about a year ago with a man who lives in Alaska. I don't agree with the whole situation, but its what she wants. She wanted to fall in love, leave Long Island and start fresh. I don't blame her. I want the same for myself. There is a bunch more about the story to explain why I'm not excited, but anyway...
You'd think she'd be happy and stop being miserable and complaining about how hard her life is, but it hasn't stopped. And frankly, I'm tired of hearing about it. This is what I've heard for 31 years. I figured she would be happy and cut it out. But nope. And now shes threatening to take me to small claims court over a bill for some things she has helped me buy for me apartment (probably a total of $800). I am making the payments, as much as I can, and yes, I was late once with a bill. But this is my mom. She knows I'm stressed with school. With work. And I don't believe a mother should ever threaten to take their child to court.
And now she isn't coming to my graduation ceremony on Thursday. Actually no one in my family is, but I figured my mother at least would be there. Thank God for some great friends who will be supporting me. To say I'm sad wouldn't describe it.
Of course I love my mother, but she has definitely helped me to see who I want to be as I grow older and what kind of mother I want to be when I have children of my own.