Tuesday, May 15, 2012
I am changing my internal dialogue from negative to positive. I will no longer focus on the things I am "giving up", as I am not giving them up- I am quitting! I will no longer mourn the sweets or fatty foods that have made me fat- they are not my friends. They are not to be mourned, as they are all around me, so how can they be missed? My mouth is not to be trusted in making my food choices, (it has always opted for the sweet and fat), so I will use my eyes and brain to feed and supply my nutrition needs. I will choose better, healthier, flavorful foods vibrant in color and texture. I will eat in the moment and not mindlessly eat everything I can shove in my face. I choose foods that will not cause feelings of shame and guilt, but rather, ones that will contribute to my positive feelings of pride and comfort as I regain the ability to touch my toes, tie my shoes, clip and polish my toenails, zip up my jeans, button my blouse, fasten my coat, and sit without constriction. I now enjoy the feelings of crossing my arms, and look forward to the day I can, again, cross my legs! I want to look in the mirror with pride and see a healthy, slim body reflected back- full of energy and health. I will find other things to enjoy and reward myself with instead of food and eating. I will not worry about the future, and take it one bite at a time. I have not lost anything but the fat, and am not giving up anything but the shame and unhappiness of being fat. I want to love my body, and take pride in it. It has always been my choice, now is the time to be the boss, and not allow myself to be a slave to cravings and bad habits. I trained myself to make poor food choices, so I must train myself to make healthy food choices. The choice is up to me.