Tuesday, May 15, 2012
I don't know if it's the soggy gloomy weather - my super-busy weekend, self-sabotage or what, but I haven't exercised in 4 days straight. In fact, I should be exercising instead of telling all of you that I'm not exercising, but right now I'm watching part 4 of "Weight Of The Nation" on HBO which is alternately breaking my heart and pissing me off.
My motivation seems to be missing. My food is good - what I don't understand about myself is why can't I have a good food day and a good exercise day ON THE SAME DAY? It seems like I can do one or the other, but don't often do both. I need to do both.
For today, I admit that I need to re-commit to myself. I am Done with self-hatred, so I'm not going to beat myself up for this, but I am going to gently remind myself of the following:
1) I love how I feel after I work out
2) I want arms like Michelle Obama, that's not going to happen if I don't work 'em.
3) My health is my number one priority - optimum health comes from eating well and exercising
4) I really only have to do 10 minutes a day, just 10 minutes! Shoot, I can stare at a wall and drool for 10 minutes, I can definitely walk on a treadmill or do some hammer curls for 10 minutes.
5) There's this 5K I'm signed up for...I'm going to end up walking for most of it instead of running for most of it unless I get back on the Couch-To-5K horse.
6) I'm not doing this because I hate myself for being fat. I do not hate myself for being fat. I am doing this because I love myself enough to fight through my default setting of fear-based laziness and do the right thing for myself so I can reap the benefits of being as healthy and as awesome as I possibly can be.
Tomorrow morning, no excuses, no snooze button, no whining - I'm lacing up and kickboxing. Every day is a new chance to get it right. Today I got it half right, and that's good! Tomorrow I can get it all right and that would be great.
P.S. This HBO documentary is fascinating - I really want to help make some kind of major social change - there's got to be a way to make sure that healthy food is available for all, not just the Whole Foods shoppers.