Tuesday, May 15, 2012
A couple of notes:
1. I hadn't realized how reliant I've gotten on exercise to kill my appetite and keep me eating less, as well as burning calories. I am not happy with the choices I've made on food since my back went out and I've had to curtail my exercising. It's frustrating and making me grumpy.
2. Health is something that you appreciate more when it's gone. This back pain has had me pretty freaked out the past week plus. I have an ortho appointment for 5/29...which I may not keep, since symptoms will be gone by then. (Fingers crossed...but it's looking pretty good!) But the thoughts I've had...what if I need extensive PT again? What if I need surgery this time around? Most importantly though...what can I do differently to make sure that I don't re-injure myself this time around?
What I know for sure is I don't want recurring symptoms.
I am willing to not be a runner if some other type of exercise will allow me to exercise consistently.
I am willing slow my weight loss considerably (by not working out as much or as hard) as long as I don't have to stop working out, which stops the loss and tends to see me gaining.
Another big sigh.
Perhaps now is the time to really learn moderation...moderate reduction in food intake...moderate exercise...moderate pace of weigh loss.
As I think about all of this, I am grateful to be on the mend. Glad that my back is healing. Thrilled I can still walk and tie my shoes and go to work. So happy that I didn't need the muscle relaxer narcotics cocktail this time around. Relieved that a month of thrice weekly PT was not required.
Now it's time to slowly ramp up. I plan to hit the gym tomorrow for the first time in a week. It will be a light hit, but I will be there.
Wish me luck!