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BLC19~D21W3~Tired Of The 'Uns' In My Life

Tuesday, May 15, 2012

It is a dreary, dark and rainy day here in Eastern PA. I've had a difficult time getting motivated to do anything today. My eating habits have not been good and I feel tired. I am fed up with all the 'uns' in my life: unhappy, unfit, unflattering, unable, unacceptable, unaccountable, unachieved, unadaptable, unappealing, uncomplimentary, unattainable, uncertain, unchangeable, unimproved.

I need turn those un's around to read: happy, fit, flattering, able, acceptable, accountable, achieved, adaptable, appealing, complimentary, attainable, certain, changeable, and improved.

Lately I haven't had the motivation or energy to get back into my exercise routine like I have wanted to. I'm going into Week 4 of the BLC19 and I know tomorrow mornings weigh-in there will definitely be a gain on the scale. I am angry with myself. I need to dig deep inside me and find the willpower and motivation that kicked me into gear last year when I lost 10 lbs. Change. I have to change. My bad eating habits, my lack of sleep, my lack of a firm schedule around the house and my lack of planning.

Although I am tired today and just wanted to lay in bed and read a book, I forced myself to get on the elliptical for 30 minutes. I still feel tired, but am glad I did some exercise. My entire family was sick and my 5 year old is just getting over it today. I'm just hoping this tiredness isn't a sign of me coming down with the sinus/cold/coughing everyone else in my house has had.

This post is kind of a downer.....I know, believe me. I like to post positive, encouraging things. But today I just felt the need to get the negativity out so I can focus on the positive and move on. I hate that I know what I need to do, but don't do it. I'm more than frustrated with myself. So here's to starting week 4 of BLC19 and making the remaining weeks much more prosperous than the 1st 3 weeks have been for me. Looking forward..... emoticon
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    emoticon emoticon sometimes negatives can turn to positives because you can see the things you DO NOT want to do to yourself~~ emoticon
    2137 days ago
    Hang in there...take it one day at a time!
    2138 days ago
    Keep writing....get those Negative thoughts out ....and know that you are not alone....

    Hugs to you...certainly hope you are HEALTHY and not catching what everyone else has had...

    and....WEEK 4...can start NEW for you....
    Don't stress over yesterday..just look at the RIGHT NOW!!


    2138 days ago
    Just the fact that you got on that elliptical means that you have the will to do it and that you are a truly remarkable person! Don't give up! Sometimes we fall of f the's just us being human. Get back up, dust yourself offf, and know that we are cheering for you! emoticon
    2138 days ago
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