Hello to all you sparkies. First I want to say thanks for all your support. It has been a crazy year for me and it is only going to get crazier. How I have managed to lose weight so far is a miracle that even I cannot fathom. As most of you know my husband is not doing well. That is an understement at this point. I had him in the hospital over the weekend and now we have added pneumonia to the mix of his ailments and weaknesses. It just plain sucks. But I am trying to stay optimistic. Kind of hard but trying. We are at a crossroads right now. If his pain medicine does not work this time then we have to put a pain pump in him. We have done EKG's X-rays and if he stays well enough then it is on to physical therapy. But with pneunonia it is not going to happen anytime soon. The dr's really don't know what to do at this point. All I know is I am tired of seeing him suffer and be in pain. I hope nobody has to go through this because I think the hardest thing a person can do is sit back and watch someone they love be in so much pain and misery. I just want it to stop, but then I feel guilty. Because why would anyone want the person they love to go on too heaven? Crazy as it seems but I am beginning to think that more and more. I just am trying to be strong but it is getting harder and harder for me. I need lots of help in this category So please pray for me to make it through all this.