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Gardening…and Sparking

Monday, May 14, 2012

Oh, my word, I've been SO overwhelmed!

First a bit of history--I had two miscarriages in a row, one in June 2000 and the other in June 2001. At the time, I really had the desire to honor those babies with gardens. In the back of our house was a graveled area for us to park our vehicles and grass surrounding so it would be a HUGE job to make the gardens I had envisioned. I had SO much on my plate with getting pregnant again in December 2001, and having 6 boys who were 11, 10, 8, 7, 5 and 2 so I just set aside my desire until the right time.

In 2004, when Mary was almost 2, I decided it was time, and we constructed our first garden right behind our house and named our gardens "Fragrant Memories" in honor of our babies [we also started collecting angel statues in their honor]. It was a lot of work, but I had LOTS of help! My boys were then 13, 12, 11, 10, 8 and 5 in the Spring of 2004, and they were AMAZING visionaries and workers! The next year we expanded and gathered all kinds of field stone from around our house and made some raised beds. The years following we continued to expand, built a patio, an arbor, a pergola, put fences up, FURTHER expanded these perennial gardens, and added many creative projects from my kids PLUS another kid [Sammy in 2006]! ha! Now I have a WHOPPING 16 gardens [NOT including the veggie garden].

Well, in those 8 years, three of my boys have graduated, and are either in college or military, and my other boys DON'T share my enthusiasm for the gardens like they used to. So that leaves me with LOTS of gardens and very little help AND in a very, very difficult season of my life--YES, the "M" word! ha! I won't even say it! This season is HARDER for me than having 5 children that were 5 and under!

As I've pondered my predicament, I've also seen how MUCH these gardens kind of represent my life in general right now--a mess! HA! Seriously, I feel like there are SO MANY WEEDS in my heart that I can't see any beauty or sense any hope on many a day!

Well, what's a person to do???? START WEEDING! I started hitting my gardens hard this weekend [and my kiddos helped since it was Mother's Day], and by golly, they are looking beautiful! emoticon I contentedly and peacefully sat out in my gardens this evening watching the Goldfinches, Evening and Rose-breasted Grosbeaks, Orioles, Indigo buntings, Chipping Sparrows, and Chickadees flitter from one feeder to the next, and stop for many a sip and bathe in our ground bird bath [see the pic of the one with our late cat, Gussie] that the boys made with extra concrete one year, and SUDDENLY I had hope--hope that one day at a time, I could keep up with some of these gardens [we are downsizing and I'm VERY happy to report that I'm down to 15 gardens and have plans to narrow it down to less than 10]!

Now back to my heart! I also have hope that I can tackle my heart issues in the same way we tackled the gardens--one weed at a time! One 'fast break' goal! One 15 minute walk! One good food choice! One read aloud book to Sammy! One more math lesson with my daughter! It's SUPER, SUPER tough! It will take me crying out for more of God to have LESS of me; however, I can see CHANGING my LIFE in 15 minutes a day??? How exciting!

Love you all, and thank you so much for listening!

{{{{hugs hugs}}}} Susan


Member Comments About This Blog Post:
TERRIJ7 5/18/2012 10:25AM

    Susan, I LOVE the photos of your gardens and the story behind them! They are a tremendous amount of work, though and I understand the need to simplify--especially during this season of life! Spending time in the garden can be soothing but staying on top of the weeds can also add stress to life, which is not something you need to add right now. Many of God's most valuable lessons are taught in gardens!

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DUXGRL1 5/15/2012 10:17PM

    What a great idea, and beautiful gardens!

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EJOY-EVELYN 5/15/2012 4:49PM

    I'm dizzy trying to keep up with all that you do, dear! You're wonder woman status is incredible. Beautiful tribute to life, great photos, and I so love the peak into your heart as you continue to give praise and glory to your Lord in whatever circumstances you find yourself!

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IMAVISION 5/15/2012 1:48PM

    What a special way of honoring your two Blessings who are in the presence of the Lord, Susan.

emoticon so very much for sharing that glimpse into your life & your gardens - they are beautiful!

May you be in tune with Holy Spirit as He blesses you in knowing just the right amount of down-sizing that you need!


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BAMAJAM 5/15/2012 10:56AM

  Hi Susan.... Your gardens are lovely, and so is your heart! I am sorry about your miscarriages. Honoring your babies this way is wonderful indeed.
My son and his wife suffered five miscarriages in a row--- and now are blessed with two sons, a two year old and 5 month old. After so much heartache, they are now joyful parents! Too, they are helping others who have experienced this kind of loss. Modern medicine can be the solution, and of course, prayer is powerful!
Thank you for your blog, Susan--- and for sharing the gorgeous pictures!

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KATHYKIM 5/15/2012 9:30AM

    Susan - you gardens are beautiful, a reflection of your inner beauty in my opinion. I know how hard maintenance can be and I think you are doing wonderfully. You have God in your heart and He will keep the weeds away. emoticon


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CRYSTLE4HIMTX12 5/15/2012 7:04AM

    Your gardens are lovely. emoticon

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LNSYLOU 5/15/2012 6:54AM

    Your gardens are absolutely beautiful! I did something on a much smaller scale. When we lost our 16 yr old Pointer last year, I carefully planned out what flowers/plants I would plant in her honor. I originally was going to make a separate garden for her. But, later decided to incorporate my "Sally plants" (her name was Sally Sue) in the area of my coneflower garden. Sally was black & white, so I researched and purchased 3 white Hollyhocks and 3 black Hollyhocks. I also got a small Dogwood bush. The Hollyhocks are planted in with the Coneflowers, and the Dog wood is a bit off to the side. I didn't know this at the time, but Hollyhocks have a problem with rust that can kill the plant. They need to be sprayed with fungicide. However, we now have another dog. I can't spray them with anything that will harm my precious doggy. So far, I've done all right by just removing all the leaves that show rust spots on them. This year, the Hollyhocks are really flourishing. They're almost taking over the Coneflowers territory! I see buds coming on them. If I get at least one year of blooms out of them, I'll be happy....this is what I keep telling myself. I hope to see some black & white flowers soon!

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CHALLENGER15 5/15/2012 6:13AM

    Beautiful gardens, blogs, and pictures. Thank you for sharing your heart with us.

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RUNNINGOMA 5/15/2012 5:04AM

    I can see myself copying some of your garden ideas. Right now, my garden is also full of weeds. That will be changing very soon. We finally have a weekend that isn't packed!

As far as the heart - yes, we have to stay on top of those weeds. It is a process that needs to be tended to daily. First God's Word then we are able through HIS strength to tackle the jobs HE has for us. Too often I find myself with my own agenda when I need to ask what God would have for me this day. That battle with the flesh will go on but victory comes through Christ!

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GOURMETLOSER 5/15/2012 3:27AM

    Such inspiration. One 15 minute segment at a time. most of us can manage that. I like it.

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MJ7DM33 5/15/2012 1:51AM

  Thx for sharing!!! Beautiful!!!

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_CYNDY55_ 5/14/2012 11:41PM

    emoticon Thank❤You for sharing pictures of your❤ beautiful emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon Garden emoticon emoticon
emoticon emoticon to ❤You!

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LHLADY517 5/14/2012 11:13PM

    Absolutely beautiful.

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WILDFLOWERR_ 5/14/2012 11:07PM

    emoticon Thanks for sharing! emoticon

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1COUNTRY_GAL 5/14/2012 11:01PM

    OH Susan,your gardens are so beautiful.I have thoroughly enjoyed your blog and the pictures.THank you for sharing,yours Our gardens/yard is still under construction.I hope ours will look as awesome as yours,wow!I am to dealing with the M word too,ughh! When does it get better? I am 51,the ups and the downs,yuck! emoticon Diana

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ERIECANALGAL 5/14/2012 10:54PM

    Your gardens are so beautiful! And here I worry about keeping up with 3 flower gardens.

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AUDISP 5/14/2012 10:41PM

    Beautiful blog, with wonderful pictures. One weed at a time are words to live by. Thanks for sharing!

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EJHEINRICH1 5/14/2012 10:37PM

  Beautiful Gardens! Good for you! I wish I had my gardens. Maybe someday I will again.
Thank you for the pics!

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