Monday, May 14, 2012
I am having a really hard time today. This is the first time that I have had a "Just WHAT have you done?!?" days! I joined a MARATHON!! WTH was I THINKING?! I did 10 miles on Saturday, my first in a very long time and before I was done I was thinking "Just put one foot in front of the other, you can do this"! This was after ONLY 10 miles!
I have always been in awe of the people who talk about the races they join and the miles they are able to put in. When I started training I always had it in the back of my head that this was NEVER going to become a reality so why worry about it? It hit me today....I JOINED A MARATHON WALK!!! And then the next day I will be doing a HALF MARATHON!! How on earth did I ever come to conclusion that I could actually do this?? I am so.....terrified right now! There are people who have given me donations to help me and I am sure they are looking at me right now figuring that I won't give up, that I won't give in. When did I get to the point that I realized this is really real and how am I EVER going to DO this?? It's gone so far beyond just letting it slip by and not do what I have set out to do, (this being my normal action) others are involved now. How do I not let each and every one of the people who have faith in me down? I don't know if I can do it.