Monday, May 14, 2012
So I binged on Saturday night. Mad at myself. I tried to fight it off but I gave in. I'm back on track as of yesterday. Worked out hard today and I hope it won't effect my weigh at the end of the week.
I'm tired and worn out feeling today. I think its stress. I cleaned up the house in spite of it though. Cleaned up the kitchen, cleaned out the fridge, cleaned the playroom, and the living room floor. I made coconut milk. Picked up after the Bear all day long.
So I managed to push through it and get things done which I'm happy about. I did my workouts except for the Sparkpeople bootcamp video. Those are simple and easy enough that I tend to wait till the end of the day to get to them. I will definitely have burned enough calories today but I still feel fat.
Honestly I think that the stress was only part of the binge. I've been feeling fat every day. I expect the scale to say at least 3 pounds more than it does. Maybe I'm just bloated. I'm still struggling with feelings of why am I doing this if I still feel fat. I know its all mental. I think I hit this last year but I don't remember. I lost a lot more weight and was actually fat. Now I'm not but I'm still struggling with.