Primal Journey Log 5/13/12
Monday, May 14, 2012
Just when I think my disbelief has reached it's peak, my hubby manages to to take it that much farther. You would think (given his dissatisfaction with my size) that he would be happy that I am losing weight; but apparently not.
He actually blames me for his lack of weight loss. My success only angers him further. It is plain to see on his face.....he can't even pretend to be happy for me. He claims that because I know he has no willpower over bad-choice food, it is my fault when he eats things he shouldn't. So basically, when he goes rooting around the kitchen and gets into the kids snacks--then proceeds to eat half a bag of chips or several snack bags of mini cookies.....it is my fault he did so because I bought the snacks for the children. When I point out that there were plenty of other food choices available for him (and less hidden then the kid snacks) he claims this is irrelevant and blames me anyway. When we go out to eat, we eat at places with good choices available...which I take advantage of....he claims he has to 'eat more calories for work' and proceeds to far exceed the amounts he should be eating so, healthy food or not, he still overeats. Then he drowns it all with several cups of soda while I have water or lightly sweetened tea. Then he's mad because I am losing weight and he isn't. Ugh.
He spends all his free time on his laptop too and really resents that I 'make' him at least sit in the living room when the kids are up (with his laptop of course). He says he's more comfortable in bed and that it's 'useless' for him to be in the living room with us. LOL, too bad. At least the kids get to see him...and if hunched over a laptop is how he wants to be remembered...well that's just more poor decision making on his part. Stupid. Completely stupid.
I explained to him about the Primal Lifestyle which includes limiting electronic devices after dark....I have even installed a program on our personal computers that dim the lighting and color it to match sunset to help with keeping our natural biorhythms straight. I love this program and love how it mimics the light outside...he just doesn't get it. He thinks he can stay up until 2am every morning on the laptop, sleep a bit and go to work cranky and tired....ridiculous. He's gaining weight, going grey early, losing connection with his wife and kids, and generally wasting his life away....and he thinks he can use me as a scapegoat. Well; he has another think coming.