Sunday, May 13, 2012
Hey Sparkies -
Happy Mothers Day to everyone! My son got me a gnome :) I love them so I was pretty happy..of course my mom picked it out seeing my son is only 2 1/2. I went home for Moms day so it was pretty hard. My best friend in the whole wide world died in a car accident on August 28th, 2010. Ever since it just hasn't been the same..it's almost like a piece of me died with him. Going back home was really hard this time around. I didn't even get time to go to the cemetery so it was even worse. I haven't been able to visit his grave in a long time and not only do I feel guilty but I just want to talk to him. I'm holding back the tears writing this and even though it has nothing to do with weight loss I needed to get it all out somehow and this is the only place that I blog....
I have friends sure but nothing like him..there is no one that understood me like he did. I've been feeling really alone lately and I just wish he was here..honestly if it weren't for my fiance Ashwin, I'd probably go nuts.
Ok..sorry for the pity party but just needed to write. Thanks for understanding.