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I'm afraid....

Sunday, May 13, 2012

I'm afraid of where this journey will take me. I want to get healthy. I want to be slimmer. I want to get back to working. BUT it scares me. I look ahead and think Oh my what a long road that is, and look at all those obsticles too. And I wonder if I'm really up to this challenge.

Well there's one way to find out. I really have to give it my best effort. I think I have been.

I've gone from dispising exercise to now I like it. I look forward to exercising. I'm finding that the exercise is something I can control in my life. Much the same way I used to think of food. I used to eat because it was the one thing I could control and it brought me pleasure to eat. Now exercise does that for me instead of food. Oh I still enjoy my food, but who knew that I'd one day be impatient to get home so I can exercise. Who knew that one day I'd be upset by the weather being bad because that meant I couldn't go out and exercise. Who knew that one day when I was bored I'd choose to get up and exercise instead of eating.

With my growing enjoyment of exercising though comes one thing into my mind over and over.

I want to run!!!!

I want to be able to get out there and take a morning run and enjoy it. I want to strap my shoes on and hit the road. I want to be able to just go take a run when I need to clear my head.

I've always envied those who ran. Even back in high school, I would watch those others who ran and wish I could do that. I read the blogs here about people who run and think, I wish I could do that.

I know you all are saying, "you can do that if you want". You're probably correct too.


I'm afraid! Afraid I'll screw up and hurt myself or something.

I do know that the more blogs I read about fellow sparker's running it inspires me and makes me think more and more I might give it a try. I'm just not sure I'm ready for that yet....as my elliptical work outs have my quads hurting like crazy right now hahaha. But I do believe I'll keep a hold of that dream of running some day.
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    I completely understand the fear of injury - when I was at my heaviest, my knees and ankles and feet were often sore. I did go for a walk with my dog everyday - started at about 30 minutes, increased to 45 +, then started walking at a faster pace.

    After a while, I just started running - the first day was about half a block. Yes, the next day, calves and legs were sore, so I walked for the next 2 - 3 days then ran again - a little farther (still not the full block) - took 2 - 3 days off.

    I know there are programs out there from couch to 5K, etc. I just did my own thing because I wanted to do it at my own pace.

    That's what worked for me.

    All the best on your journey - where you want to be might seem like a long way off, but just one day at a time. I am sure you will find a way and be running like the wind before you know it.

    Stay Strong
    2078 days ago
    I too have an urge to go running but at 330 pounds, I know this is not a great idea at this time. My lower legs, ankles & feel all get very sore just from walking and working out at the gym.

    My time WILL come. I think once I drop about 50 pounds, I may give it a try. I just want to crank up the treadmill when I'm on it, but I know that at my weight, I should just wait until I'm lighter & stronger.

    If your body can handle it then GO FOR IT !!!!
    2078 days ago
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    Melissa, I have faith in you, and I know you can do it. Being able to run doesn't happen overnight, and it takes training. :) As you continue on your journey, you'll find that you will be able to do more than the day, week, or month before. :) You CAN do this, and you're doing great! Keep up the great work, and don't give on yourself. If you ever need to talk, you can always call, text, or email me either here or on Facebook! I'm proud of you for how far you've come, my friend! Can't wait to meet you girl!!
    2078 days ago
    Hay you, your worth it!

    Take baby steps, set up those visual aids (Jars) and start putting those marbles into them. One day at a time...If some thing is hurting change up what your doing. Go for a brisk walk or just do some thing else.

    I know you can do this why do i know this because you have been doing this!

    You have achieved a bronze medal because you have already been doing some thing....now reach for the sliver....keep going...cause your worth it!
    Yes you can do it!
    My saying is this "Do or do not for there is not try" Keep going don't stop because YOU are worth it!
    2081 days ago
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