Sunday, May 13, 2012
Sitting here reading over my previous blogs and also reading other peoples blogs and also reading The Spark I have come across my very first epiphany....and ah ha moment! It is this...
I will only gain control over my eating habits and issues once I can learn to cope with the emotions that trigger me.
For instance, I just recently learned that I have a terrible problem with hiding that I am eating. This started when I was younger. I think it stemmed from the constant reinforcement of me "not growing up to be fat" and that I was so strictly monitored that when ever I got a chance I would sneak food...problem is that I still do it now! It is like this weird compulsion. I also will hide that I am eating from people, which in turn causes me to binge later on.
My biggest downfall right now is the binging when I am upset.
Today, I have focused on what I am eating and why. I cant say that everything I ate was just because I was hungry, but I focused on what I was so upset about. I find that cheese is my favorite upset comfort food.