Saturday, May 12, 2012
I walked on the treadmill for 25 minutes today. 3 minutes of running! I can tell I'm getting better because the burn doesn't start as quickly and I can breathe a few seconds longer than I could before. Haha. My new resistance band came in the mail today, too! I did Coach Nicole's video for the basic resistance band workout. I definitely felt the burn. Hopefully my DVDs get here! I'm stoked to start.
I'm also proud of myself for controlling my emotional eating today. That whole guy situation that I've blogged about before...well here's a quick update: he's been acting odd around me, doesn't talk to me as much as he used to (in person and in text). everyone who knows about us told me to just give him time, he has a lot going on, blah blah blah. Well as soon as I got to work last night, I was told that the lesbian couple broke up because one of them was "ready for a man." Turns out she's ready for the guy I've been pursuing for months. Apparently they talk all the time (according to her) and there's something going on between them (according to everyone else). Who knows what the truth is. Gossip spreads like wildfire there and you can't really trust anything anyone says. But no one knows about what he and I had going on, so that's all they talked about all night. I spent a good portion of my shift staring at the giant M&M cookies. But instead of eating my emotions, I drank them. I had over 100 oz of water. I'm so disappointed, but it made me even more determined to get healthy and fit. Maybe now I'll be able to stop worrying about him and spend more time focusing on me and my goals. He obviously wasn't the one for me, but it still kind of hurts. But Old Me would have already finished off a gallon of ice cream. Instead, I put my frustration into my workout. I'm so proud of myself. This is huge for me. I called my mom, cried about it for ten minutes, and then went and sweated hardcore.
As for emotional eating, I'm doing better about it. However, eating when I'm not hungry is still a problem. If I only ate when I was hungry, I feel like I wouldn't eat at all. I definitely wouldn't get enough calories in. How do you guys deal with that?
This helped today: