Friday, May 11, 2012
Or should I call it a BINGE. Excuses, blame, blame, excuses, pity party, justification...PMS. 9 days of mindless, emotional eating. Stuffed, bloated, disgusted, busted...
I think of how I busted my A$$ for 8 weeks doing step aerobics faithfully 4 days a week of 3 1hr sessions and one 1/2 hr session. My body is changing in ways I never imagined because I've been so concerned with scale/lbs and all the overeating. How STUPID is it to do all this work and then just self-sabotage!?!?
But moving onward, I think I will just skip the scale this week or two and take body measurements and compare to those of a few months ago.
I will refocus on drinking water, getting in fruits and veggies, sticking to mostly whole foods and leaving out processed low cal snacks.
I will spend time reflecting on this viscious cycle and working hard on how to handle the issue when the hormones strike again. They will strike again. I need to prepare for the battle.
I have come a long way in this thought process but need to actively pursue my ideas. How does one consent to loving self enough to do this because I deserve it. Believing that I am worth it. Knowing that I have not been perfect but have done very well. 33lbs lighter and so much stronger.
There has got to be an AHA! moment even just a little glimpse into my passion for health and happiness.
okay, enough thinking - just go do it