Friday, May 11, 2012
This year I have many goals and a lot I want to get done. Not just losing weight but being healthy, not taking life for granted, start being better with my "extra spending". I know I can do it it. Its funny when you realize that you are making bad decisions be you continue to do them anyways, Well I am done with that. I have made a couple goals that basically only matter to me but I am sick of letting my self down because when it comes to it, if my life isn't how I want it to be, its something I am doing wrong if it be me eating junk for in the middle of the night or me spending way to much money on stuff that is not a need, or if I am not spending the time that I need to on my relationship with God. God is the major one. If I get right with him I am sure things will fall into place and I will have that peace that passes all understanding. I want a lot of changes this year, but they are never going to happen if I don't do anything about it. When I see the scale number go up its my fault, no one force feeds me- its my decision. When I see the number in the bank account go down that's my fault. When I get that empty feeling inside because its been to long since I have taken my devotions with god seriously that's my fault. Its hard work, all of it its discipline. Its hard, its not undoable. So this is it for me. I will be giving it my all, and I am not making excuses any more, I will screw up because I am not perfect, but I wont keep doing this downward spiral. I got this. Starting tomorrow, I will start out with my devotions, run/walk three miles and start looking for a better budget to follow.