Friday, May 11, 2012
My son is a senior in high school and I finally realized that this event is causing me great anxiety. I hate to say that but it's true. I've always known that he has to make his own goals and dreams. However, I have certain expectations for him that are not to be. He needed to take the ACT and drove to the college he wants to attend to take it, which is 4 hours away. I was a nervous wreck! My younger son asked if I was worried about my car. I was more concerned about him and then I realized I was more concerned about him in general. He is very headstrong, just going against common practicality. He missed getting an academic scholarship by just a few points either in his school GPA or through the ACT. This will cause him to go to community college. Maybe this is what I need...to keep him home another year. I'm not the kind of parent that holds on too tight. I know they are on loan from God and it's my responsibility to raise them to the best of my ability. They will spread their wings and fly at some point...and there are days I can't hold on tight enough but most of the time I am ready for the change of him becoming an adult...the man God wants him to be.