Alas, I am proud of myself
Thursday, May 10, 2012
It feels as though I take 3 steps forward, and 2 steps back sometimes. Yesterday I did some good and some bad things. I started the Tame your sweet tooth challenge, so I am going to document my "sweet eating" habits in my blog. So, I got a rather large medical bill, and even though I was expecting it, it threw me off emotionally. This really made me want to eat something sweet. I was bad in that I ate, when I wasn't hungry, but I was good in that my snack was two servings of granola. The calories were high, but not as bad as it would've been in I had indulged in more and in something not so good, like ice cream or brownies.
I also had a few of Chrystian's mini Charleston chews. This was a more calculated risk, as I made sure to only have 4 out of the 13 for a serving size. I did this earlier in the day, and didn't feel the need immediately afterwards to eat more, whereas, usually I would eat an entire box, plus have some of each of my kids' candies.
Next, I went out with a friend, and she needed to grab a bite to eat, so we stopped at McDonald's. I was going to be good, right up until we got to the ordering speaker, and decided to get a strawberry milkshake. I wasn't hungry, or emotional, I just ordered it, out of bad habit. This is why I don't usually stop at these kinds of places anymore. I was immediately annoyed with myself for even doing it.
Lastly, I was sitting by myself last night, while my hubby was away, and I wanted to eat something soooooo badly, but I knew that I didn't have any calories left. I was partially bored, and lonely, but I actually was genuinely hungry. However, I wasn't about to go over on my calories, and I really did ruin my numbers with that stinkin milkshake. Argh!! I was at least proud of myself for not grabbing something to eat.
I am definitely learning a lot about myself and my triggers, and how to counteract them, but it feels like a long journey already, and I've just begun. I have come a long way though, and I am proud of the leaps and bounds I am accomplishing.