Thursday, May 10, 2012
So, today was a nice day, so I decided to go jogging outside. I usually run at my school's gym, but we're in between semesters this month, so I had nowhere else I could go.
Well, about ten minutes into my run I passed by a house that had a handful of teenagers sitting on the porch, and I could see them watch me, dead silent. As soon as I passed, I heard then suddenly start laughing really loudly. I glanced behind me, and they were still watching me. When I turned the corner and was out of sight I did a quick check - nothing was hanging out, no embarrassing sweat stains... I can only come to the conclusion that they were laughing at a heavy girl running.
That's pretty much ruined my day - I feel mortified, and like it's just not worth it. Like I should just go home where it's nice and safe and just stick to the basic exercises I have been doing.
I hate feeling like this - like some kids opinion is greater than my own self-worth. Part of me wants to toss them a mental middle finger and to keep on keeping on: I'm getting healthier, I'm losing weight, so WHAT if they're jerks, I'm doing what *I* want to do! The other part of me wants to go to bed and wake up when tomorrow comes.