Thursday, May 10, 2012
Here it is 5 months into my journey here at SparkPeople. I will not give up!!
Partnerships in life are what keeps one sane and getting up in the morning. I may not be the best friend that anyone ever had but I do want to be a good example and a good friend to everyone I meet. If I can help someone find the courage or stamina to stick with it, then I have done what I have set out to do.
Life has not gotten easier but it now has a purpose that is worth while!
I walk this path because I choose to and I hope that you will all continue to walk with me in the direction of wellness!!
This has become a way of life. An important part of my life and how I keep in touch with what I am feeling and going through.
I know I have gone through a large assortment of feelings on this journey already. From "why am I doing this", to "what good does it do to try so hard". I cant believe I have not gotten to a point of just saying "I quit!" I guess my thought process has changed along the way.
Now I think more of "I am worth this" and "Yes it is hard but anything worth while is going to take time and energy to get there!"
I still have negative self talk but am finding it easier to come back with something more positive to keep myself going. My husband is being very encouraging and helping me with getting me out walking now that the weather is nicer. I work some long hard hours at some difficult times and he works late too. But we are finding the time to put in to our lives so that we have a life to live and fun together.
A year ago we were doing some walking and had worked up to walking for an hour and in that time covering about 2 miles. Well on April 29th we started walking again. We did an hour and walked two miles right off the bat. I know I was tired but it felt so good to be able to start up where we had more or less left off last fall. We are making plans now for canoeing and for hiking and for getting out and doing so much more then we ever dreamed of.
This year has been full of changes and challenges that we never saw coming but we feel better able to handle now because we are a united front and we both want this for us!!