Thursday, May 10, 2012
For quite some time now my body has been speaking to me. And I've been ignoring it.
Living with chronic pain has resulted in an interesting dichotomy for me. I am acutely aware of every sensation of my body. I am hypersensitive to my body's pain and can at any given time list to you at least 20 locations of discomfort, much more specific than "back" and "neck". It's much more subtle and complex than that.
Because of this chronic pain, I have also learned how to tune out my body's messages. When you know you have over-reactive pain receptors that aren't suppressed neurologically as normal people's are, you live with very real yet somewhat phantom pain. And if you are going to give equal attention to this pain as healthy people do, you'd never get anything done. So I've learned to tune out these messages and just get on with things. Live my life in spite of the pain.
And so I'm so practiced at ignoring my body, things that ought not to be ignored often are. For weeks, months really, my body has been whispering "move me". And I've ignored it. Consequently I am out of shape and low on energy.
Today I exercised. Hard. But not too hard.
And you know what my body said?
Hopefully we can start communicating a little better. And I can learn to trust in my body's inherent wisdom. It knows what it needs. I just need to listen and obey.