Wanting to Jump off the Wagon
Thursday, May 10, 2012
I'm doing great. I'm exercising consistently. I've finally figured out exactly how many carbs I can eat at each meal and keep my bloodsugar under control. I have lost 7 pounds and despite a temporary set back there, seem to have really lost it this time. I'm committed to this as a lifestyle. But - I'm wanting to jump off the wagon today. I want to totally blow my diet, to eat high carb, high sugar foods.
If I did blow my diet I would regret it within 20 min. My blood sugar would soar. I would get mind numbingly tired. I would feel sick. I'm typing all this out so that I can remember what it feels like!
Here is a public declaration that I am choosing to ignore whatever is prompting me to want to bail today. I will eat my yummy but healthy breakfast with it's sweet fruit. I will eat my salad with protein for lunch and my square of dark chocolate for dessert will be smooth and decadent. I will eat my low carb snack and dinner. And I will party at Zumba. Today has real treats built into it. My diet and exercise are not a prison to escape.