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My Scale Is A Jerk

Wednesday, May 09, 2012

Well, not really. I just didn't like what it had to tell me, even though I knew it wouldn't be pretty. And even though I said I wouldn't weigh myself, I couldn't help myself.

I am reminding myself that I retain water like crazy because this girl can't let go of ANYTHING. I also had a pretty high sodium dinner last night (the boys talked me into KFC and I was too lazy to make myself something that wasn't almost my ENTIRE DAY'S ALLOTMENT of calories, so I won't be doing THAT again!) and because I was cranky and miserable I didn't add the food to my Nutrition Tracker until AFTER I ate it. Had I done so BEFORE eating it, I probably would have eaten something else because I got the calorie version of "sticker shock". Lesson painfully learned.

Although, let me be totally honest, NOBODY thinks fried chicken is a healthy choice. NOBODY. So it's not like I'm digging my pointer into my cheek and making a dimple and batting my lashes about this. I chose to eat something unhealthy because I felt bad and I wanted to feel good. And I made an old choice rather than finding a better option. I own that.

So seeing 247 this morning hurt, but I know what I need to do. I need to work out at least 10 minutes a day (30 if I'm going to kick the Spring Into Shape Bootcamp Challenge's butt) and stay in my range. It would have been helpful if I had PLANNED MY DINNERS FOR THE WEEK, and that IS a goal for May, but I haven't yet done that. I think that planning my dinners out would avoid that whole "Hey, we have nothing defrosted, can you pick up some giant greasy fatbombs for dinner?" thing.

So my goal for this week before next Wednesday's weigh-in is to plan my meals for the rest of the week, including lunches and snacks. It would be good to have that all lined up so there's no wiggle room and I won't be swayed by the desires of skinny gawky teenage boys.

Chalk it all up to a learning experience. It's all about progress, not perfection. If I'm not working 100%, I can't expect 100%...but don't get me wrong, I'm not saying this with hostility towards myself. I'm done with beating myself up for being human. Failure isn't falling down, it's STAYING down. I'm getting back up.
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    Absolutely loved your last paragraph filled with so much wisdom .
    2111 days ago
  • SYZYGY922
    Old habits die hard. I still mess up for the sake of convenience, but I find myself doing it less often. Like you said, progress not perfection. Planning really does work!
    2114 days ago
    Your honesty is your best strength in your battle to lose weight. If you stay this honest you should achieve all you want. This is exactly why I think it IS a good idea to weigh yourself when you know it ain't gonna be pretty. When I have been out to a buffet or something like that I weigh myself daily and I watch how hatd it is to shift that sodium weight over the next 10 days. I think it's the best way to see how much it wasn't worth it for 30 mins (5 mins) of unhealthy food and keeps me focused on where I'm aiming to go. If don't weigh I know it will be all too easy to keep on eating badly for a while longer.

    we live and learn....chalk it up to experience and get planning emoticon emoticon
    2115 days ago
    I am sitting here reading this laughing out loud! Love your humor and honesty. You have perfected rule 62, don't take your self too seriously. Thanks for the laugh and your honesty. There is no way I could go to KFC and not eat and even if I did restrain myself it would be absolute torture. I have a skinny teenage boy too, who mentioned yesterday that he wants real food for dinner again! I went from cooking these amazing comforting dinners every night to chicken and veggies...LOL
    2115 days ago
    I have gotten really good at planning and packing my meals in advance. If I don't, I am forced to eat school lunch, which usually weighs in around 1100 calories. Once you get a system down for organizing meals, it is not as daunting as it appears to have the whole week planned out. Of course, it's just me and D, the cat, and D only wants dry cat food and the occasional bite of my salmon. Teenagers might be more fussy.
    2115 days ago
    I admire the way you process these things. Cheering you on. Rah rah rah :)
    2115 days ago
    Just keep getting back up, baby!! You can do it!
    2115 days ago
    Planning is a good idea, good luck with it!! I hope it works for you. I'm only disciplined enough to plan for the next day - no weeks for this girl.

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  • LISSA2008
    Living and learning - that's what it's all about!

    2115 days ago
    kfc is definitrly calorie bombs, I used to work there and gained A LOT of weight. You'll do great with the planning though!
    2115 days ago
    Planning out meals has helped me so much. I'm also on a pretty tight budget since buying a new vehicle so I refuse to waste any food. I have everything planned out down to my snacks as well. It's a system that works!!
    2115 days ago
    Don't you hate having skinny kids????? They always want fast food!!! Mine always want Panda Express which is a sodium nightmare!!
    2115 days ago
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