Confused but determined!
Wednesday, May 09, 2012
I'm sort of confused. But at the same time, I think I know the answer. Sounds confusing? I told you I was confused! LOL
I have literally been on a plateau for 7 months. Last December I blogged about this very thing. Five stinkin' months ago and I am on the same topic. And guess what? I am at the same weight that I was five stinkin' months ago.
Now, my teenager, wise beyond her years, told me it was a good thing that I was still the same weight. She said that meant I was still working on it and not gaining. She said that it meant I was still committed to a healthy lifestyle and to working out. Man, she's a smart one! :) However, that doesn't make this any less frustrating.
Here's where I'm NOT confused. My eating has not been stellar as of late. I have had an incidence at least once every other day or so where I will eat something I know I should not- even when I am not hungry. I always find myself telling myself that this is a life long journey and I can always get back on track. Trouble is, I do this too often. I haven't gained weight, but I certainly haven't lost either. If I was actually *IN* maintenance then it would be fine. But I'm not, and it's not!
Now, I still workout every day. (Rest days on Sundays!) I completed the Insanity program with no weight loss. I am in month 2 of P90X- with no weight loss. Some days I do two workouts... I will do a P90X and then walk 4 miles or spend an hour on the elliptical. And no weight loss. You would think that would be enough... my diet choices are seriously not that bad. I'm not eating cake every day or muffins or cookies. (I did have a rather serious stint with Nutella but I wound up throwing it away because I found myself thinking about it all day! Really! It was that bad!!!)
I still drink 8-10 glasses of water a day. I eat mostly clean and vegetarian. (I'm pretty good with the 80/20 rule!) I get plenty of sleep. I am not overly stressed- actually I have very little stress in my life. I have a great job as a substitute teacher and have fun with my kids and husband when I'm home. I volunteer and give back to my community. I have a dog who is like a daughter to me.
Great life, right? It is! It really is! So why am I holding onto this dang weight? My husband says that maybe this is where my body is supposed to be. Maybe this is my ideal weight. I say NO FREAKING WAY am I going to accept that 212 pounds is my "ideal weight"! I told him just the other day that I am at that point where most people think, "I gotta lose weight! I weigh over 200 pounds!" You know those success stories you read in Health or Fitness magazines where the women are like, "I was a size 14/16 and weighed 200 pounds. I was FAT! I had to change my life..." Yeah, that's me NOW after losing 120+ pounds already! :( I still want to lose 50 more but just can't seem to nudge my body into the right direction.
Even when my eating is perfect, I stay the same. So I have come to the conclusion that it can only be one thing holding me back. My IUD. I can't think of what else it could be! I have the Mirena (sorry if this is TMI!) and it has slow release hormones. The only way to figure out if that's what it is is to have it removed! If that's not the problem and I want it back in, that's almost $1000 out of pocket as I now have no insurance like I did when I had it put in place! Yikes! That seems like an awful expensive experiment!
Anyone else have experience with this problem? Any other less drastic solutions I can try?