Wednesday, May 09, 2012
Well woke up in a semi cranky mood this morning my 8 month old woke up about 8 times last night, husband woke up early from back pain and started watching an incredibly loud movie ugh, finally after an hour of trying to get back to sleep I gave up and gave into hunger.
Started making hubby food (bacon and toast with jam) and I was gonna eat a brocoli cheese and egg omelet (no bacon or toast for me originally) well it started with my husband Bobo (not real name just super mad at him) any how Bobo looked at the toast said "I wanted melted butter you F*** up" So I kind a threw a temper tantrum and said "fine I'll eat it and make you a new one." Mistake #1 I even hate potatoe bread but I still ate it jam and all it made me soo mad and I don't even know why was it the fact that he didn't appreaciate my cooking or was it that I made all the effort to feed him and the kids before I fed myself. So I made him another one, then i had to get him more milk which meant once again for the fourth time going up and down our 16 steps got more for him then i ended up spilling coke and because I was mad at him I ended up drinking three glasses of it. a grand total of 620 calories ugg. mistake number two I did end up eating the omelet after all but still I didn't even enjoy eating all the bad food I felt guilty about it but anger was fuling the fire.
whats wrong with me and how can I learn from this and not sabotage myself quite so often again?????? I am hoping that if I do a three to five mile workout then maybe it might make up for the glutteny a little bit and start fresh tomorrow