Wednesday, May 09, 2012
17 Day Diet
Cycle 1: Accelerate, Day 2
Day in, day out. Week after week. Month after month. I get older and everything else just goes on.
I'm bored. I'm tired. I'm tired of stupid people in the news. I'm tired of people asking me the same questions over and over again at work. I'm not even motivated to write. I want to put something meaningful on paper and all I do is stare at the screen. They say to write what you know, but what I know is no one wants to read about what I know.
What I really want to do is just DO something different. I want to quit my job and take a chance, or move to a strange city. I want to try the extraordinary things I should have done in my youth.
I want to go to the airport and buy a ticket on the next flight to anywhere, just to go somewhere.
But I've got responsibilities. I've got a husband who depends on me. I've got kids to take care of. I've got bills to pay.
Call it a midlife crisis. Call it suburban burnout. I don't know. All I know is I can't even tell one day from the next most of the time.