Wednesday, May 09, 2012
Life is a circle...it just keeps going around and around...sometimes it's hard to remember that. I want to plan everything and have it go according to what I've planned. But it doesn't work that way does it? When it doesn't it gets me frustrated...aggravated...extr
emely upset...depressed...and sad. That's when it affects my training. You see it's 2012, and although I am a lot smaller than when I first started this journey, I still am not where I wanted to be. I've read and read articles, magazines; gone to all different websites and talked to all different people to be as knowledgeable as I can to be successful. I've read the success stories and been inspired by people who have lost great amounts of fat and sculpted their physiques into bodies that I aspire to have. The time frame I gave myself was 3 years, which to me is a lot longer than most. Due to the health issues that I had at the time, I figured it was reasonable enough. Unfortunately for me, LIFE had other plans and I have been in a BATTLE with it for 3 years now. New health issues have arised (or maybe old ones that just finally got diagnosed), personal struggles with relationships, economic issues and professional struggles, too (being laid off twice in a year and a half). Through it all, I've tried to maintain my focus and not lose the work I've already accomplished...I only gain about 5lbs, but it seems I am always gaining and losing the same 5lbs which keeps me going nowhere. But i try not to let it get higher than that only because I am still so big and have at least another 50 lbs to lose...sometimes I beat myself up about it...but then I stop thinking of it as winning or losing...it's life...that's what it is...life...there are days and even weeks where I let it all go to hell and forget the whole nutrition/exercise routine due to stress, health issues, depression, problems with my family or friends...I let those things get in my head and mess with me and that messes my whole outlook on focusing on ME...look how long it's taking me to lose a few a pounds...it's hard to snap out of the mentality but I do it because I have this site here and when I look at all those before pics I have posted on here and remember where I was at and where I don't want to go back to, well that just kicks me in the rear end and gets me started again...lol...sorry for the long reply...the point of this blog is to remind me: DON'T BEAT YOURSELF UP ABOUT STARTING OVER...life has many start overs...but I don't like that phrase...life is a CONTINUATION...at least for me that substitution reminds me that it is a constant journey and like all journeys there will be stops and starts along the way...detours, breakdowns and blowouts...but we always fix the breakdowns, change the blowouts and plan a route when we detour to get back to our main journey...so, I had a breakdown and a blowout that made me have to take a slight detour out of the journey for awhile...but now, I'm back on the main highway and continuing on my journey....
...and I am going to end this with my favorite quote from motivational speaker Jim Rohn's Ant Philosophy that says "Never give up, look ahead, stay positive and do all you can."
Have a great journey! :)