Wednesday, May 09, 2012
i posted in the christian women with depression the following prayers--and to my credit, i was having a quiet time when i got the following bad news:
it was confirmed that one of my daughters has been taking heroin. it is confirmed because she has been arrested for dealing.
for about 2 weeks now, my husband thinks i have been cheating on him. we have been married 9+ years, and this is about the time that his first wife and him started going their own ways--because she was cheating on him... i have no idea what to do or how to handle it. and he is getting angrier and angrier that i am not taking him seriously.
i read in joshua 6 tonight. and i prayed: God, i want that victory. when will it ever be that i fight this battle and i don't look back? can i even dare to look at that chapter, and see that victory, and claim it for myself? can my family have victory? what do i do ? do i shout? scream? run around things for 7 days?? how do i really claim these victories over this devastation in my family??
i sat and prayed tonight, that my daughter have had that jailtime, that being caught, be the very best thing that ever happened to her. i know it sounds wrong, but that is my prayer. i have been praying for 8+ years now that she get clean.