Tuesday, May 08, 2012
I had a hard time figuring out what to blog about today. I didn't go to the gym because I just could not wake up.
Then I realized... that's what I need to blog about!
Sleep is a precious commodity, one that far too many of us set aside as the least important part of our day. We sleep if we have time, or sleep is something that gets in the way of doing something else. We know we should sleep more, but who has the time for it?
The problem comes when you want it, and can't have it. That's what my problem has been lately.
I've always had an interesting relationship with sleep. I used to get an average of 10-12 hours of sleep. In college, my usual schedule was go to bed at 3 or 4, up at 1 or 2. I LOVED sleep. The more, the better.
Parenthood, obviously, cured me of that little addiction. Since having kids, I've been prone to insomnia.
I finally had insomnia beaten, though, when I started taking melatonin. It really did the trick; instead of laying up for hours waiting to go to sleep, I just fell asleep!
Then, spring came.
And with it, allergies.
Oh, not mine. I only wish. No, it's my husband's. And I've discovered that melatonin can't beat snoring.
He's on a sleep med to help him go to sleep at night, which means he's out cold within ten minutes of laying down, and I get to listen to him sawing logs. I do listen to music occasionally, but I can still hear him through the earbuds. I have this weird thing about snoring, too, because when I was a kid, my grandfather was a terrible snorer, and I once spent 8 hours in a tiny camper trailer listening to him snore in 32 degree weather in the mountains.
My sleep deficit has been building up for weeks. Because even though I'm getting much less sleep than he is, I still get up to take my daughter to school, because I go to the gym afterwards. If I don't go in the morning, I don't go at all.
This morning, though? It hit me like a ton of bricks. I just could NOT wake up. I was so exhausted that he got up and took my daughter to school, and I wound up sleeping until 10 AM.
I don't know what I can do about it; sure, I could make him sleep on the couch, and he would... with only minor pouting. He actually offered last night. Honestly, the other night, when he went out with a friend and was out until 3 AM, it was the best night's sleep I'd had in over a month.
I don't think there's a way to win this. I do need to go get him some snoring strips (those help, a little). It's definitely not positional... I've tried rolling him over, and no matter what position he's in, he snores. Side, stomach, back. It's worse on his back, of course. Mostly I just attempt to roll him over facing the other way.
Oh, did I also mention he has periodic limb movement syndrome? Means his legs and arms move substantially about every 90-120 seconds. I know, I've counted.
I don't know. Maybe we can work out a compromise; one night on the couch, one night in bed. But I don't want to sleep separately. I want to sleep TOGETHER. I just need to sleep.