Tuesday, May 08, 2012
Another day, another donut. No, no, no!! Really, it was more like another fruit salad. Problem is, I'm still not feeling sparkly. My husband has been dealing (or should I say "not" dealing) with some health issues, and although there's nothing life threatening (well, we hope not--and it kind of was life-threatening at Easter time)...it sure has taken its toll on us. I think, maybe, that my husband is afraid of the true diagnosis. So he's refusing to take additional tests. Me? I'm the kind of person who would want to know, deal with it, and get it over with!! I've had plenty of health issues in my life, and I had to suck it up and just handle it!! What is with MEN!??? omg! It's frustrating me to no end, even though I try so hard to continue my mantra "Let go and let God!"
My frustration and sadness over this health issue is really weighing on me. And in terms of my own method for dealing with stress---well, I bet it won't take long for you to figure that out. Food! You got it!! lol. I don't have any other vices--I don't smoke, I rarely drink (especially now, when I'm not willing to imbibe liquid calories!), and so that leaves--food! Last night, hubby decided to buy himself a sweet treat--which was fine. I mean, he's lost 20 lbs (to my 5!! grrrr!) and he is very stressed, so I understand. Meanwhile, I did make a good choice and opted for SF/FF fro-yo with minimal toppings. Clearly, a better choice than usual for me--but I really didn't have any wiggle room in my calorie range for the day. So, although I had made a very conscious decision to eat a treat--I also did a 1/2 hr. on my mini-tramp. Which was a good workout. And, as an added benefit, I slept like a log. Again, very good for stress.
But today, I'm still not feeling sparkly. I made good choices so far today, and I have a healthy dinner ready for tonight. Hopefully--this mood will pass. I have to truly let go of the resentment. I have to allow my husband to handle his own health the way that he sees fit. I know he's a smart man, and a sensible person....so I suppose he'll eventually do what the doctors are recommending. But for now---it's just hard. As I always say, though, "this too shall pass!!" I'll be repeating that inside my head as much as necessary until things are looking up again!!!!