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Monday, May 07, 2012

Why am I here again? Because I always put me last. It looks like my life has boundaries, but when the scale goes up, it is like a siren should be wailing ...Wah wah ..too much..wah wah.. yeah you. The one trying to do school and moving and losing her community. Yeah you the one who left her church and saw her husband lose his job. Yeah you who is trying to behave as if it doesn't matter but crying over water on the floor. I showed up on this site and today I had a grocery list. I have been staring at the pantry for seven weeks hoping they would sprout food. No such luck. But today armed with a meal plan and a printed grocery list, I felt empowered and ready. My kids even went with me. Aldi. I am no fool. Less for them to try to talk me into buying. Today I a going to bed having spoken more about my pain in the last 48 hours than I have in 4 months. And it felt good.
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  • PUGLOVER1999
    Keep writing! It is cathartic! Yesterday I wrote a very private journal about my negative feelings toward a friend. Writing relieved the pressure (It felt so bad to think those negative thoughts!) as well as opened my eyes to some problems with my own thinking! It's cheaper than a psychiatrist ... and probably more accurate!
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