Monday, May 07, 2012
My pants are falling down.. Yes, literally.
This is really frustrating!!!
I need size 20's and I am wearing 24's. I own two 22's and they're both in the laundry. They're loose, but they don't fall down - yet.
So I need to get some 20s and some 1X's. It is time.
More important, my mood is down..
Not sure why, except maybe needing more sleep for real. I
I tried two walks and some hooping time.. but it didn't help my mood much today.
I did read that it takes a few weeks to really recover from the flu, and I think I am not giving myself the time to rest and recover. Meanwhile, it seems I haven't done a whole lot.. not a lot of housework which is mounting..
When I think about it, I can come up with reasons to be depressed.. and maybe that's what it is.. but nothing has really changed today.
I had to take a lot of trash and recycling to the dump today and there were a lot of maggots in the trash, which totally completely disgusts me. I got rid of all of it, though. Phew.. So that should make me feel better, right? But somehow after that my day went downhill.
I picked up my son from school and made sure he used the bathroom. We went directly to a thift store I wanted to check out, which turned out to be a consignment store and some nicer things.. But.. within five minutes, my son announced he had to go the bathroom. Nope, they don't have one. This is the second thrift store we've been to in the last couple weeks which doesn't have a bathroom. Sigh. So we left. I did see some promising pants there, so maybe I'll go in the morning.
I had a short temper with my son for no particular reason. My husband gets up very late like after 2, almost 3 pm and has to get to leave for work shortly after 4. I didn't see him all day because he went to bed just as I was getting up for the day, actually he went to bed AFTER I was up and when I was in the shower. I don't think we've exchanged 10 minutes of conversation in the last three or four days or longer. He just doesn't have time for me any more and this bothers me. We went to counseling between October and Dec. and things were better then until this job schedule changed in March. It has been so hard since then. He is just never here.. or here, but asleep and not awake. I go to bed alone. I get up alone. So this is depressing me.
Later I will dance.. maybe.
I just need to be gentle with myself and get better.
Going out now.. should be getting a bit of Reiki, which is energy healing, and that may help. Babysitter is here. Just getting out and having time along should help, too.
Hope you're doing well. Hugs!