When a loss is truly a victory
Monday, May 07, 2012
Last week I had a karate competition. I was psyched, I wanted to show my stuff. I felt ready (in spite of a torn muscle that still gives me trouble: bye-bye flexibility!).
Anyway, long story short, I finished fourth. I made a mental error (meaning I completely lost focus and forgot my &%?$& kata, right in the middle of it!). So I had to improvise... Not exactly the performance I was hoping for and I should have been pretty upset, right?
WRONG!!! The simple fact that I was there, the only girl on the tatami (all the other competitors were men), was a victory in itself. And I hadn't entered a competition in over 25 years. 25 years! But most of all: according to my doctors, I should be walking with a cane if at all due to a severe injury I sustained a while ago.
So yeah, fourth is pretty cool, and I've got the tiny trophy to prove it (they gave prizes until 5th place).
There will be other competitions, and I will be there again, and one day, I'll walk away with the big trophy. In the meantime, I'll keep on walking, running, kicking and dancing, and that to me, is priceless.